Christmas Detox
Why do churches think they are so important that they need to have a service on Christmas morning? Do they not value being with family? Sure they do, right?
But Christ's family, the church is SO important and "holy".
I am so thankful I am out of the church. I am free to say whatever I want to say. Nice. And be with whoever I want to, whenever I want to.
This Christmas, I am spending my morning, afternoon and evening with people who matter ... my family. We will be sharing meals, gifts, life and love. I wish only the best for you and your families.
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Church Detox Step 4
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
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Wow.
A "fearless" inventory of myself? I don't really want this online for the world to know. ......
Damn...
I drink too much.
I don't express love to my wife enough. [4 years as of yesterday]
I have issues with my father.
I can't stand the current state of the church.
I believe people in paid leadership of churches live in a fog and don't really understand the concept of work.
I don't really take care of myself physically.
I sometimes feel alone.
I only want the best for everyone.
I feel like a fuck up ... but I embrace it and love it.
I REALLY do love people.
I am a notorious sinner.
I want the church to wake up and want more than what they are shooting for and grow up.
I believe God loves me but question my salvation at times.
I am a fraud.
I am me ... that is all.
Now the world knows just a splinter of me. I know it looks bad. Yep.
God, I feel even more real.
But Christ's family, the church is SO important and "holy".
I am so thankful I am out of the church. I am free to say whatever I want to say. Nice. And be with whoever I want to, whenever I want to.
This Christmas, I am spending my morning, afternoon and evening with people who matter ... my family. We will be sharing meals, gifts, life and love. I wish only the best for you and your families.
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Church Detox Step 4
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
-------------------
Wow.
A "fearless" inventory of myself? I don't really want this online for the world to know. ......
Damn...
I drink too much.
I don't express love to my wife enough. [4 years as of yesterday]
I have issues with my father.
I can't stand the current state of the church.
I believe people in paid leadership of churches live in a fog and don't really understand the concept of work.
I don't really take care of myself physically.
I sometimes feel alone.
I only want the best for everyone.
I feel like a fuck up ... but I embrace it and love it.
I REALLY do love people.
I am a notorious sinner.
I want the church to wake up and want more than what they are shooting for and grow up.
I believe God loves me but question my salvation at times.
I am a fraud.
I am me ... that is all.
Now the world knows just a splinter of me. I know it looks bad. Yep.
God, I feel even more real.
posted by Joshua Sager at
10:04 PM
6 Comments:
Josh, welcome to the club of REAL people, not these wannabe porcelain smiling bitches of Christendom. You're f'ed up like the rest of us mutts.
I already posted some thoughts on Steve's blog about my wavering on my thoughts on the issue (despite the fact that I don't go to church and the whole thing is null and void for me) and I'm too lazy to post them again...
That said, one of my concerns about some churches holding services on Sunday and some not and some people being there and some not is the whole "I'm more spiritual than you because I actually went to church on Sunday instead of opening presents!" attitude that you're going to see from some stupid church people.
This reminds me of something that happened about a year and a half ago when Matt and I were in Vermont for his cousin's wedding... The day after the wedding, the family had a Sunday morning breakfast around 9 or 10 at the local diner... But Matt's mother and Matt's aunt couldn't be bothered to show up because they HAD to go to church... and there were a couple of mumblings about it being rude... and to a degree, I thought it was.
I'm one to talk... I've done the same thing on several Easter Sundays...
Joshie,
As I read down your list, I said, "Yep, me too." to every item except drinking too much. I was thinking that if I drink more, maybe I wouldn't worry about the other items so much.
Anyway, I love you, man. Merry Christmas.
Merry Christmas, Josh.
You are loved by the SCP listeners and readers more than you probably know. More importantly, you are loved by a God who's mercies know no bounds. Good thing: I count on them every morning.
just a question, out of curiosity...is that your deepest darkest inventory or just surface stuff?
i feel like most christian people could admit most of that stuff...
i applaud the 'inventory' thing though...at one time, i was going to write down the absolute worst things that will haunt me until death does me part and then send them to a friend. i didn't. i wonder if it's because i was embarassed or if perhaps i knew that deep down inside i'm infinitely self-focused. i shouldn't even write this, because it's about me. again.
anyway, interesting to read your thoughts.
i find it very difficult to embrace church culture (not the people, the culture). i hate singing "worship songs", sermons are a silly way to communicate and prayers are forced. christian books and movies are awful, christian music is much worse and jesus-fish are often dumb.
but man, i love some of the christ-followers i know.
keep looking, i'm desperately doing the same.
good stuff josh. honest
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