Back-Stabbing Church People

I have done my fair share of back-stabbing. Being the one caring only for myself and my agenda. I would do everything in my power to be "right", even if I knew I was wrong.

But it really hurts when it happens to you.

I have decided to speak my mind, to question what I believe and not be satisfied with easy answers. I want more. That is the problem. I believe if someone wants to follow Christ fully, dangerously, etc., you must live a life either alone or with thick skin. Which I have neither.

Questions make you stupid, right? Thoughts make you stupid, right? Ideas make you stupid, right? Maybe.

I almost want to stop. Just walk away from any type of "journey", if that journey is only going to be criticized. Or do I need to grow thicker skin? Do I need to shut up or shut other people up? Do I need to forget others?

No.

I will not stop.

My journey is sacred. My journey is mine. Yes, I have chosen to make this public. Only in hope that others will unite common journeys and do this together. I want to suck the life out of life! I don't want to be merely content. I want more. More than what I was given, what I have, what I see before me and what others want for me.

Argue that.

Criticize.

Feel special.

I want Christ.