Let's Save Sager!

I wonder if I will ever want to go back to church. Why? Is there any good reason to? Maybe to just be with people … weekly. But I can get that anywhere. I can get that in a bar.

It is hard to blog or podcast lately. Life out of the church has been refreshing and life saving… but it makes it hard to talk about the church. I begin to not care. The very idea of church is boring to me. Church is no longer my reality. Not only do I question the necessity/reality/authority of the church but I also question the very essence of Christianity … is it truth? I just don’t know. Can a Christian prove Christianity without the Bible? No. Christianity is based on faith just like every religion. And just like every religion, there are promises of a life better than mine right now.

Too good to be true? Maybe. Is it truth? I just don’t know anymore. I have fallen away and will probably go to hell. Sucks for me. But I must question this. I cannot just follow someone else’s lead anymore. I don’t need the weekly verbal masturbation and fake and forced friendships that the church offers.

If my “friendships/relationships” from the church were real … they would have continued after my leaving the church. Not a single one lasted. I have reached out to some … and I get the same result … empty promises. “Yea, let’s meet up”…never follows through.

BOTTOM LINE:
-Church is fake.
-Your “Church Friends” are not your friends.
-They will pretend to be your friend as long as you keep “stroking” their need for a fake community.
-You need to find some real friends that will love you for you.
-You need to get in a fight and lose.
-I am probably going to hell if your faith is as strong as you believe it is.
-The further away I walk away from the church; I feel more alive and have less stress in my life.
-Again … I am probably going to hell.